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A few weeks ago, I noticed a teacher friend of mine had lost what I think is a lot of weight, but really it is probably things just firming up and toned.  She looks HOT!!  But anyway...

I asked her how {of course, I had to ask.  Don't we all?}.  And she told me from a book called Run Your Butt Off by Sarah Lorge Butler with Leslie Bonci and Budd Coates.

I like running.

So I asked if I could borrow it. 

So far in my reading it all makes sense and nothing is out-landish.

I am thinking of starting a book club with this book and want to know if you want to read it with me and put it into practice. 

Make a comment below.  If I get enough people I will see if I can get a bunch on the books from the library or I am sure you can get a copy from Amazon or some other bookstore..

Who's in????  And if you don't live near by, join in the reading and I will setup a chat for us to all talk about our thoughts and feelings.

Going Public

I just went public.  I have/am truly letting it all "hang" out.  I {figure} if I want to have/get help I will need to just put it out there.  So here I am billions of people asking for your help.

For every person I who follows me (publicly, I have to see you to know you are following) I will walk a mile in your name {eventually run}.  This is to help me and to thank you for your support.  

I will get healthy{ier}.

If you want to join me, DO!!!  Can't do any of this alone anyway.

Obession

I think I am obsessing about weight. 

I can't get it off my mind.  I see all of these pictures of supposedly healthy people at sizes 0-4 and all I think about is sizes 0-4.  I know in my head I will NEVER be a 0-4. 

All I really want to be is HEALTHY.  Play with my kids and be sexy at any size to my lover.

I am trying to figure out how to be that.  But I don't want to be obsessive about....that's not working for me.  Thoughts?

It's Starting to Spread!!

I have been thinking about my weight a lot these days.  But what I have noticed is that my sweet husband is gaining weight.  Not really sure if it is due to age...my cooking...his lack of physical activity...etc...

But the one think I do know is that I can't let him end up like me.  I feel so much like a whale and I am trying so may avenues to get better. 

The most important thing to me is that we are here for our boys and each other.  They say that the mom is the the #1 key to the health of the family.  I have to agree.  I am not as active as I should or want to be.  And I can give a ton of excuses, but the fact is, I have to be better and do better for my family.

This year I have not trained or ran a 5k.  And I must say that is one of the one things I really liked doing. 

It is suppose to be really helpful if you do it with someone else.  I think I am going to sign my husband and me up for one.  He may not like it, but here is my effort to help us both and I think I will make a meal calendar for the family.

Not Feeling Like the Person I AM on the Inside

So for past few weeks I have been trying to figure out this strange feeling I have been having...no I am not pregnant, although I feel like I am the size of a lady having triplets.

But I digress...anyway...

I feel like I may have the disorder they talk about on all the various doctor shows about people (anorexics usually) seeing themselves as grossly huge when they are way to skin and bones, but I see the opposite.  I know I am obese, but I don't see myself in the mirror as being that heavy. 

The only time I have said, WOW girl, you are big is when I see myself in pictures.  My face seems huge in the photograph, but what I see in the mirror is NOT big at all. 

Recently, I just noticed that I am getting the dreaded double chin.  <<<PRIMAL SCREAM>>>

Today I was walking from the bank and I noticed how my body felt as I was going back to my car...

I felt the feminine sway of my hips, yet I knew that it didn't look right.

I don't like this feeling of my sexy, sensual self suffocating under layers of fat.

10 Lessons from the Wingback

Lesson #1:

• Life will soil you.  But that doesn't mean that you can't be cleaned up.

Lesson #2:

• As long as you have "strong bones" ~character~ there is still much for you to do and support.

Lesson #3:

• What counts is, what's happening on the inside.  When I was tearing down the outside of the chair my whole goal was to see what was going on underneath.  It was messy getting there.  Some staples were strong and didn't want to let loose, but patience and not giving up won out.  So when I saw what was underneath was not "bad," it really made me think the same about myself both physically and spiritually.  Yes, there is work to do, but it is very doable

Lesson #4:

•  Slight changes can make a huge differences, so although I thought that I knew what I was doing, I found that I was unpicking seams and redoing things.  All because I was not following the "pattern" ~the guide~.  We have guides all around us to help with our health, our emotions, our finances, our relationships, our spiritual well being, etc.  Are we listening to them?  This does not mean we have to follow them, just hear them out and take what we can use and apply.  We don't always have the right answers...at least I know I don't.

Lesson #5:

• Getting to the "root" of things requires WORK!  I saw and felt that, as sweat formed on my brow with the hours I put into getting beyond the surface.

Lesson #6:

• Everyone needs a break, a timeout, a respite.  This is does not mean you can just forget what needs to be done next, but take a breather and sit with/appreciate your accomplishments thus far.

Lesson #7:

• Get back to it.  NEVER LEAVE ANYTHING UNDONE!  In the words of my father, "Don't do a half-assed job!" 

Lesson #8:

• Putting it all back together takes as much patience and work as ripping it up.  Family discord, broken friendships, marital strain, all take time to rebuild and make better, but it can be done and be made even more beautiful than it was originally (I've done it and because I am not perfect still doing it).  NOT THE SAME, BUT SO MUCH BETTER.

Lesson #9:

• "It" doesn't have to be fancy or expensive.  "It" can be old.  "It" can be dirty. "It" can have it's problems.  yet, "It" STILL HAS VALUE!!

Lesson #10:

• Share your talents.

I know many of you only know me a little, but I sincerely thought of you and others as I went through this process of "rebuilding" this chair.  I know we all have had things in our life that has soiled us, or we've done some things we are less than proud of.  We've hurt others, ourselves, etc. etc., but we can be better and many of us are.  Congratulations!!!  I know all of you are a good people, I've seen it in the past or I am getting to see it now in many of you.  I know you have worked hard to be where you are by making decisions that have affected you, spiritually, physically, emotionally, financially etc. 

I know I still have much to learn and hopefully share.

In the end, you all have value to me. Thanks so much for being my friend.

{figure}ing out How to Reupholster a Wingback Chair Part II

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