Journey 2 Fit {Day 117-129} How to beat "The Visitor"

Taboo subject or not...it is what it is...

Periods!  I do not like them.

As a pre-menopausal lady, I have not had to deal with the body temperature swings, emotional imbalances, etc, but what I deal with is the bloating, ravenous chocolate seeking, cramping, restless, exhausting mess of a period....I guess I do deal with the menopausal crap, just not on the same scale as my older "sisters."

My poor husband, hears it every month, "I HATE HAVING A PERIOD."  What is the worse part for me is during this journey, my period takes a huge toll on me, especially the week before. 

Am I the only one who has the hardest time getting out of bed to go for a run or do a ZUMBA class?  I have found that I can't give even 50% during that time and all I want to is eat sweets and sleep.  I have been lucky enough to be conscious of what I put into my system during this time....and to my surprise I haven't gained any lbs.

My recommendations (if you are having the same struggle as me):

•  Fiber One 90 cal. Brownies (I hide them from my kids and they help me satisfy the chocolate cravings without the guilt.  They are really GOOD, especially the fudge ones!)
• Multi-vitamin (I take one everyday.  I am not a dietitian or a doctor, so don't go taking a vitamin based on my words.)
• Drink H2O (I drink 32 oz. before I have breakfast.  I figure it gets me started on making good food choices.  Not to mention, I think that it moves my period along a little faster) 
• Spinach Smoothie (I have to keep this going.  I have one for breakfast or lunch everyday.  It is chalk full of  fresh veggies and fruit, which is probably helping the mood swings.  It's the one treat I do share with my boys.  They love em' and that makes me happy.) (if you want one of my receipes, leave a comment and I'll post one for you)
• Walk (I will admit, the one good thing about having a period to me are the leisurely strolls.  I guess I use it as a week of recovery.  I do about 30 minutes a day of easy walking.)

Well, there's my rant on how I beat "my visitor." What gets you through?

Journey 2 Fit {Day 103-116} Graduation Outfit Search

The pounds are coming off----CHECK

The inches are melting away----CHECK

Husband is taken 2nd glances---CHECK

The wardrobe is getting updated---NOT CHECK!!!!

NOT CHECK!!!!!!

I have not been this low in weight and inches in a long time.  My clothes are SOOOO baggy.  My boobs don't fit in my tops anymore and I am constantly having to pull up my pants.

{I must admit, I love having this problem.}

I need a shopping trip.  I need a new wardrobe.  I am about 15lbs. from my 1st goal and I see that it is going to probably be met before the scheduled end date (April 28).  But what I have not planned for is the fact that I am getting to the point where I can't fit into my BIGGER "duds" anymore and they are DUDS!!

I need some ideas here.

When I graduate this May I want a new outfit to go with the new physical change in me as well as my well earned degree. 


Tell me your idea of a great graduation outfit and don't forget the post the link.   

Journey 2 Fit {91-102} 100+ days on this "trip"

This has been the most insightful experience thus far.  I have learned more about my own limitations and how I need to respect them. 

Limitations should not be seen as just stuff you "can't" do but in my humble opinion, they should be viewed as "check points."  They are there to make you aware of your abilities and capabilities.  They demand and require RESPECT.

The "check points" I have seen in myself are:

• Not running faster than you have strength for.
• Not doing the easy thing just because it is easy (This one was an extremely eye opening lesson.  I have to do a separate post on that)
• To shut my mouth and just listen and hear.  (There is a great deal you can learn in silence)

And the list can go on.

My journey is not done.  I have pit stops along the way.  I would love company, but you can only get on the ride when it is your time.  And that's another thing I have learned in these 100+ days.  This trip is a long one and those who get on to support you eventually have to get off the train to deal with their stuff.  But others may join you.  Yet and still, there are others whom you will pass by who are not ready for the trip. 

And that's okay.

When you are ready, I will be here for you to support you along the way.

Journey 2 Fit {Day 88-90} Oh Holy S.W.E.A.T!!!

S= Sound
W= Weight loss
E= Energy Boosting
A= All Natural
T= Treatment

Yep, that's what it is!!!  Over the last 90 days, 30 of them I have dedicated to Zumba and fit2fat2fit.  In those thirty days I have done something I have never done in my life before.

SWEAT

In the past I have only allowed myself to get to the stage of "glistening."  Who wanted to sweat?!?!  Sure as heck not me.  I had convinced myself that sweat was not necessary for ME.  Everyone else needed it to see results, NOT ME.

So now I have been sweating daily!! And to my surprise....

I LIKE IT!!!!  A LOT!!!!!

To my understanding, sweat is the body's natural temperature control, when the body gets hot or too hot, you will SWEAT.  So in my little brain, I comprehend that to mean that, if I am sweating, I am burning something...right? 

What is that burning? 

SUGARS & FAT!!!

YEA!!!!!!!

So I will sweat some more. 

What's your S.W.E.A.T acronym breakdown?

Journey 2 Fit {Day 79-87} Feeling Light

So I've been doing Zumba for a while now and definitely feel the change within me.  My spirit is light, my weight is lighter and the endorphin level is high.  This is all good.

Things are becoming clearer to me and choices are becoming easier to make.  For example, last night, date night with hubby we went out to dinner at Applebee's.  I had there under 550 cal dinner, so did hubbs.  But what struck me was that I was stuffed!!! 

I over ate.  I have never had that feeling before.  I recognized that this was something different.  That my body had done some changing.  Now I know what that feels like.  The abuse I was doing to myself.

It was enlightening.

The uncomfortable feeling helped me know my limits and now I can make better choices.

I love this journey I am on.  I love what I am learning about me. 

This week I gain 1 lbs...I am thinking that is muscle, because I definitely feel stronger. :-)

Journey 2 Fit {Day 58-78} Closing that Chapter

I haven't given up if that is what you have been thinking.

VERY far from that.  I have been workin' it out!!

This past Christmas I got Zumba for the Wii and it has been nothing less than REMARKABLE!  It is so much fun and I look forward to doing it everyday.  Since my last post I have lost about 6 lbs in 20 days workout.

Another thing I have been doing is find my peace in my fractured relationship with my mother, sister and father. 

It's been one month today, since I last spoke with my mother or father and even longer since I spoke with my sister.

That is the most difficult part of this whole journey.  In an earlier post, I talked about how the lbs. found a home on my 5'3" frame all due to emotional situations that I allowed to affect me NOW.

Not anymore, I can't afford it.

In my, what I believe, is my last visit back east, I was pushed beyond my limits and I can never, nor will I ever do that again.  I wish them well, I hope for prosperity, good health and joy for them, but I know I can't be a part of it.  My bad dealings with them will not be added lbs. on my frame.  I think of them, but I can't hurt myself in order to help them. 

The whole experience has brought to light that I am not important, and really haven't been that important in their lives.  I have extended myself to them, but it has never been reciprocal.  I had to let go and move on.  It's hard and it hurts, but it is what it is and I have turned to exercise and making better food choices to deal with the depressed feeling I have.  Luckly, I have seen the positive results to deal with the stress of losing yet more people I love.  Another sad chapter in my life I will have close. 

I now depend on my husband and boys to fill me up....and Zumba...they are all I have now.

Journey 2 Fit {Day 54-57} Weigh-In #8 (I've skipped a few)

Three weeks at a stand still IS OVER!!  I think...I hope.  3 lbs down in the history books.  I am pretty sure the hike and the zumba had a lot to do with. 

Not to mention letting go of family baggage.

I am feeling so much more positive and free. 

Thank you for your support.  Looking forward to next week.

Journey 2 Fit {Days 35-37} Weigh In #5

I was a bit leery to get on the scale this morning.  But I had lost 1/2 a lbs. 

Lately, my mind has been spinning with all of the doubt from last week.  But what I think I have learned is that when a woman is getting close to that time of month, our bodies are experiencing something.

I know for me, my cravings go through the roof and I begin to feel sluggish and seem to drag.  It is truly a hard time for me.  I know I tend to hold on to fluid that seems to never leave for about a week.

Workouts are harder and I don't feel the motivation like I usually do, with that said, I SUCKED at last weeks workouts.  I did them have hearted and I know the 1/2 lbs. loss result is due to that, but a new week is coming!!  And new challenges.

Next week I am going to visit my dad in Virginia and I am hoping that I will have time to CTR (Choose the Right) meals and find the time to get in my exercises.  This should be fun never the less.  I am hoping to get at least one run in on the beach.  I HOPE!!!!

I am still pressing forward.

Journey 2 Fit {Day 33-34} A Fine Line...I can NEVER across again.

In worrying about my weight, I have thought a lot about how some people have achieved their weight loss.  Some have worked there butts off.  Others needed the assistance of a doctor and have taken the drastic WLS(weight loss surgery) way.  There are people who have reduce calorie intake to 500 calories while taking HCG products.  And the most scary way, in my opinion has been through a eating disorder.

My mom has in the past teased me about bulimia.  And today is the first time I will publicly admit that I did practice bulimia. 

I've come to understand that bulimia is not a food thing, at least not for me.  It was and still is a mind thing.  A self-esteem thing.  Something, I did to try to be like those around me, who were all thin and beautiful.  And some of those people are still thin and beautiful, even after kids.  My mother would often say, "Black women are built differently, I don't know why we (black women) tend to get 'big' after we have babies... 

My husband says, "I'm a man who likes meat of my bone."  I know he says that out of trying to make me feel better, but it often hurts.  Only because I think he's settling for something less than...and we have often told our children  that settling is not an option.

With all of that said, I will say that on this journey I have thought often about bulimia.  Especially in my alone times.  I have begun to come up with justifications as to why I should, but I come back to that day is high school, when I fainted and was taken to the hospital and was kept for over a week for observation.  Then I tricked the doctor's to thinking that I was just overly stressed with school, but it was because I had been purging for 3 days straight and it had finally caught up with me.

So I have come to that very fine line again.  Trying to figure out if I am going to be doing this the healthy way and putting in the time or going back to my old destructive ways...and I choose the hard road. 

I think I am at a turning point.  I now realize that my weight issue is more of a mental change in myself than it is physical.  I honestly believe that as I strengthen mentally the physical will follow.

I hope you continue to support me.  Thanks.

Journey 2 Fit {Day 32} That was WORK!!!

FOR ALL THE STARS IN THE SKY!!!!!  Yesterday's workout almost killed me!!!!  I have been so focused and worried about a stinkin' PLATEAU, I had no idea what was ahead.

I could only get through 1 Exercise. Before I knew it, I had to do them again to complete the rest.  Today is that day!!!!  I have to finish yesterday's exercises and still do 30 min. of running/walking. 

Today, I got on the scale and the number increased by one.  THAT PISSED ME OFF!!!!  But not to point of quitting...to the point of having a stronger resolve!!!!!!  Oh I have learned that I will not be looking at the scale daily...my son was doing that and I had to put an end to that...so what is good for the gander is good for the goose...NO MORE sneaking a peek at the scale until WEIGH-IN Saturday.

I am a WINNER!!!

...and working for a valiant goal never really hurt anyone.

My Goal:  A healthier me for ME & my family.

Journey 2 Fit {Day 30-31} Fear is NOT an excuse to quit

This morning I slacked and didn't get up to workout.  Not because I was tired or it was cold, but doubt has begun to flood my mind.  It is Day 31 of my journey and I feel stronger and healthier, but I am a visual creature, I WANT and NEED to see concrete numbers.

So just a little bit ago I went to check in on fit2fat2fit to see what exercises I will be doing this week as this new month brings new challenges....and I got scared.

First thoughts,  Oh NOOOO, I can't do this!  Then I kept reading Drew's post and in all caps he said, FEAR IS NOT AN EXCUSE TO QUIT. 

Can you believe, I actually placed my head in my hands and cried.  I was going to quit.  It was like Drew was calling me on my crap. 

I can't quit.  This is just the beginning of the change.  This opportunity is a blessing.  I have the benefit of a personal trainer, dietitian and coach ALL FOR FREE.  And I was going to throw it away because of  FEAR and a CHALLENGE.

What the hell was I thinking!?!  I just have to keep digging.  Even when I am tired and it is frustating...KEEP DIGGING!!!!

Journey 2 Fit {Day 26-27} Loving What I am Seeing

Getting ready to hit the 4 week mark on doing fit2fat2fit and I am finding that I am looking in the mirror more.  I don't like mirrors.  As a matter of fact there is not a full length mirror anywhere in my house.

I have not had one for several years.  But now I go into my son's room and look at myself in his mirror which is a little bigger than the medicine cabinet, which I sometime avoid.  Things are tightening up.

With that said, I was teetering there the last couple of days.  I was really craving a greasy burger, but I thought, I've come this far, why screw it up now.

As a matter of fact, I just got off the phone with my mother.  She was saying how she wishes she would have finished a lot of things in her life.  How things she has wanted to accomplish, escaped her because she never finished. 

I don't want to ever say that.  Although, I have said it before.  This is one of the reason why I am pushing along.  Why I can't give up and leave things undone.

So I will push for that extra step.  I will push to holdfast passed the temptation.  Thanks for being there, folks...I feel your cheers.  I know you are pulling for me.

Journey 2 Fit {Day 25} Just Thinking...

...about how I got to this position in my life.  It took a long time actually to get here...and TODAY it slapped me in the face, that it is going to take a long time to fix it.

I didn't just get fat all of a sudden.  I had to take care of "the fat."  I had to nurture it.  I had to feed it.  I had to give it what it wanted to grow.

Now that I know that I have not been nurturing my "healthy self," I have to really let "the fat" step aside.  The "healthy me," wants it's time in the sun.  NOW I will nurture it!  NOW I will feed it.  NOW I will give it what it needs to grow and be strong.

I don't want anyone to get the idea that I think fat is bad.  Fat is not bad, it can be abused though.  I have used it in that way, abusing myself with over indulgences.  I have allowed it to get out of hand and rob me and my family of a lot. 

I deserve BETTER...SO do you.

So get moving!  With me or not!  Eat aware! No matter what it is you are eating, be it a spinach smoothie or a triple-decker burger...KNOW WHAT YOU ARE PUTTING INTO YOUR BODY!!!

Thank you so much for your words of support.  It's working for me!!!  I hope I am being as helpful as you.

Journey 2 Fit {Day 23-24} Changes Noticed

Yesterday was a rest day and I took full advantage of it, knowing that this was going to be my week of harder work and even greater dedication.  So today I did all of my "scheduled" workouts and 3 miles. 

I'm Lovin' this feeling"

Today, my little one noticed something I hadn't really paid any attention to.  My Pants.

My PJ bottoms seem to be A LOT looser and very baggie. That got me thinking about, what am I going to do with all of this extra clothing? 

Being that I have been overweight for so so long and I have not been really into shopping for myself, I have not bought a lot of cute stuff for me.  I just didn't/don't have a eye for fashion at my current size, but things are changing.  With my clothing not fitting and I am starting to look droopy, I need some up-to-date stylish outfits.

Where is your favorite place to shop?

So changes are being noticed and that is the best feeling when others see your hard work and you don't have to even say a word.

Journey 2 Fit {Day 22} Weigh In #3

This week was a challenge and I was expecting to gain at least 3lbs. back of what I lost since last weigh in.

But to my surprise I gain CONFIDENCE and stayed right where I was last week.  HOOOOORAH!!!!!

That was scary!  I wasn't sure if I could handle Thanksgiving and all of the holidays.  Everything was so good.  It helped that I did the 5k, I am 100% sure of that.  So I am pretty sure that there will be another one that I will have to sign up for before Christmas.  Hopefully the boys will get up and go to this one.

So next week the game plan is to truly stick to the meal plan for the week and work a little harder with the exercises.

Thanks for checking in on me. 

By the way, I am trying to find non-traditional exercises you can do on a treadmill...Do you know of any?

Journey 2 Fit {Day 21} Habit or ????

I hear it takes 21 days to make or break a habit.  Is that true?

21 day!!!  That's all!!! 

So in the past 21 days I have:

• Exercised~ I physically moved my body in some way be it stretching or cardio, I've exercised.
• Food for thought~ I conscientiously thought about every bit of food I consumed.  Trying to make the better choice.
• Kind words~ I have thought and said kind words to myself about my journey, hopefully giving myself encouragement to be better.

I think I still need a few more days to make all of this concrete, but I think I might be on the right path.

What habits have you created or let go of in 21 days, be it health or otherwise?

Journey 2 Fit {Day 20} Happy Thanksgiving & 5K

• 4:30 am wake up
• 5:00 am get out the gear for the race
• 5:30 am drink my protein drink
• 5:45 am start picking up all of the other 5k-ers

This was so exciting.  The last time I did a race was the "Love your body" race and it was AWESOME.  This race I really wanted to just enjoy it and take in everything that was happening around me.  I was go glad that I did this one with a group. 

As I do every race, I always vow to make a new friend.  This year I met Gary Bohn.  He usually runs the 10k but had surgery two weeks ago and decided to walk even probably against doctor's orders.  He is a wonderful man from what I learned.  He wasn't sure if he would make it the full 3.1 miles but as we all talked we realized that we had made it by the end.  It was wonderful.  I am so grateful for him and JaNean.

This was a first time 5k for a lot of people in my group (Matt & Melissa Harris, JaNean Frandsen, Jessica & her husband and me) and they did awesome.  They got bit by the bug and already want to do another.  Matt wants us to put one together, call it "Run the West" (after all we are in "West" Valley).  Definitely something to think about.

I hope this Thanksgiving we can all just be grateful that we have each other and that we all are healthy.  I am grateful to all of you who visit my little blog and support me. 

Happy Thanksgiving and hopefully I'll get to see you at the next race.

Journey 2 Fit {Day 19} Falling and Getting Back Up...HELP

This week so far I have not felt like the lbs. have been moving as quickly, but 5 lbs. is one week is a lot, right? And that pace REALLY could not have continued, right? 

I couldn't wait until Saturday, so I stepped on the scale an I have gained 1 lbs. of the 5 I lost back...and I know exactly how I got it back.

Yesterday, I made a dessert for my Spanish class and my intention was to "just" share with them not partake.  I partook and then last night, my little one decided it was opposite night for dinner and so dessert was on the menu.  I made peach cobbler for "dinner." 

As a matter of fact, it's 10 til 6am and I hear my hubby warming some up in the kitchen right now!!  I will hold my ground and not eat any...not because I am trying to "deprive" myself, more like, Thanksgiving is tomorrow and I want to be able to enjoy it and "not deprive" myself.  Deprivation doesn't work anyway.

So I have fallen and I am getting back up.  Does anyone out there have any words of encouragement?...I need some right now. 

COMMENT BELOW PLEASE!!

Journey 2 Fit {Day 18} Gratitude for the Support

Everyday I look to see if more people have "joined this site" to check to see how many miles I will need to do.  As I look at all those wonderful people's names and even one anonymous, it makes me get a little quiver in the lip.

Support in anything is key to much of the success.  I am so full of GRATITUDE for all of you who believe in me and support me.  I hope that what I am accomplishing here is an inspiration to all of you. 

I will support you also in your efforts.  Every single mile I  walk/run, I actually think of those people, there to the right.  For me they are saying, "Nakia, I believe in you."  I know that sounds corny but that thought keeps me taking each step.  I am especially GRATEFUL when those voices come to my mind when I really want to stop.  It helps me to keep pushing!!

Thank you!

I would love to walk more miles to say "Thanks."  So I ask you to please tell your friends and family what I am trying to accomplish here and "join this site."

Journey 2 Fit {Day 17} Positive Progression

They say the hardest part of any thing is getting started.

I AGREE!!!

It is day 17 of my journey and I reflect on the the 1st day.  For some it may not be a big deal, but for us who have struggled this is a HUGE deal.

I got up PUMPED to start, but the first time I did the plank I wanted to cry.  I think I did  a little.  Now I can hold the CORRECT position for nearly a minute without struggle.  At first I shook like a leaf in a windstorm, but I feel stronger now.  I don't shake as much.

It was a little thing.

A little thing that was added upon other little things and here I am able to do it.  I am so PROUD that I have stuck to this passed Day 15. 

Today as I walk on the treadmill, I thought to myself that this is so what I need, so what everyone needs, time to see the positive progression of the things.  This is going to make getting up at 4:45 am to workout a lot easier for me....I hope it works for hubbs too.

What positive progression have you seen in your life?